Stressful. tiring. irritated. impatient
All negative vibes.
But no.. There’s still positivity left in me.
Let me tell you what I’ve been up to lately. Since, I still have no item to teach in public school (meron na sana, kaso, I declined) I decided to be a substitute teacher. I was happy about it, because I will teach in my alma mater. I took the responsibility with all my heart. I was assigned to teach in Grade 1. Oh, I was never given a chance to teach in Grade 1, ever. Its my first time. I told myself, “Challenge yan para sa akin!” Kakayanin ko!
And, Its been 2 weeks from the first day of class. To tell you honestly, araw-araw akong umuuwing pagod. Pagod sa klase, pagod sa paggawa ng lesson plans, pagod sa paggawa ng visual aids, at pagod sa paglilinis ng room. Ganito pala talagaa ang realidad ng pagiging isang guro. I am physically and emotionally tired. Pati yung katawan ko gusto na yatang sumuko. To the point na, nagkakasakit na ako. My asthma strikes again because of to much fatigue. Good to know, my substitution is only good for 1 month. 2 weeks left and I am out. With these experiences, napapaisip na tuloy ako kung ipupush ko pa ba ito? Is this what I really want? To teach my whole life? Napapagod na kasi ako. Pagod na. But I love teaching talaga. *sighs*
But, I am still thankful and blessed.
ngingiti pa rin ako. sasaya pa rin. kakapit pa rin ako. Ito yung pinili ko eh, mababago ko pa ba?
Let see what the future holds….