- Waking up in the morning.
- Eating my favorite food.
- Receiving a sweet text from someone.
- Hanging out with my family and friends.
- Seeing my crush?
- Getting a good sleep.
- When someone appreciates me.
Salamat. Isang salita na paulit-ulit kong sinasabi habang ako ay nakangiti. Sadyang napakabait ng panginoon. Humiling ka lang at magdasal ng taimtim at ibibigay niya ang iyong kahilingan. Hindi ko inakala na ganun kabilis ang mangyayari. Akala ko hanggang imaginasyon ko lang mangyayari, pero possible rin pala na sa kasalukuyan- isang panaginip na nagkatotoo. May mga bagay nga sa mundong ito na nais nating mangyari ngunit tili ayaw ng tadhana- dahil hindi yun ang nakalaan para sayo. Naniniwala akong may plano ang Diyos sa bawat isa sa atin. Kailangan lang nating maghanap, maghintay at magtiwala. Salamat po ulit, Panginoon. Makakatulog akong may saya sa aking labi. Salamat!
Let me try!!!!
-Hip hop or rap? rap!!!
-Sneakers , leather? sneakers!!
-how many times did you fall in love? never!
-how many times you take a bath? once a day, hahah!
-how many kids you want? 3 will be enough.
-part of the day you want? night time.
-favorite past time? surfing the internet.
-favorite color? black.
-favorite song? taylor swift’s.
-favorite singer? taylor swift
-sexiest woman in the Philippines? Jennylyn Mercado
cats – dogs? dogs!!
-car – motorcycle? car!
-sexiest man in the USA? Paul Wesley.
-green or blue? green!
-last thing you do today? ate!
-your most treasured possession? cellphone
-if you could be a hero for a day, who are you? darna! haha
-what are you plans? to land a stable job!
-handsome , intelligent? intelligent!
-cooking or baking? cooking! never tried baking, anyway!
-greatest fear? losing someone I dearly love.
-last person you called? my Papa.
-last song you sang? Like I’m Gonna Lose You by Meghan Trainor.
-if you can access a person’s mind, who will it be? Jb.
-What was the nicest things said about you? That I am the best Teacher in Filipino!
-The Pope is having dinner at your place, what would you cook for him? Adobo!
–When was the last time you flirted with someone? Well, I don’t do flirting. Never! hahah
-How much time do you spend in the bathroom? 10-15 minutes!
-What is your greatest achievement? Passing the RQA for Public School teachers!
-The worst thing you did for love? Prayed hard that he will like me back.
-What defines you? my kindness
-If you could be someone for a day, who would you be? Why? I wanted to be Selena Gomez because she’s just amazing and I love her!
-If you were to have the body of someone whose body would it be? Nina Dobrev! Damn, she’s sexy!
-What is the biggest misconception about you? That I am mataray, suplada cold, unapproachable.
-What makes you happy? family and food.
-The most expensive thing you bought for yourself? Laptop
-What is your early morning ritual? Check my phone and see my bare face in the mirror.
-The biggest challenge you had to face? When I lost my mom.
-This is your last night in the world, who do you want to spend it with? My sis and father.
-The best books you’ve read? The Universe of Us, Lang Leav
–If you have to eliminate one emotion in your life, what would it be? Obsession!
-What is your idea of perfect relaxation? Beach relaxation with my family.
-What would you want to hear from your guardian angel now? That everything will be okay. Do not worry, i am with you. I will guide you.
Few days ago, I stumbled upon installing an app, called Question Diary. So, I decided to post my answers here in my personal blog. Much better.
Are you happy now? Am I happy? Well, Yes. I am. We all have different sources of happiness. Some says they are happy because of, money, they can buy whatever they want- complete family, hanging around with their friends, happy love life because they found their match and etc. These are such the common sources of happiness.
At this moment of my life. I am happy. But not that happy. There are still wishes and desires that are yet to come for me to say that I am completely happy- genuinely happy.
To be honest, my heart now is full of questions. There are days that I felt empty. Days that i don’t know what to do. Lost. confused. soul searching. In time, I know God will provide me a genuine happiness. The kind of happiness that will never fade away. Happiness that would stay.
As they say, Happiness is a choice and I chose it. There’s still a long way to go. Life is a journey of finding oneself and figuring out my life’s purpose.
I might sound so dramatic in this blog post, but trust me. I am okay. I am happy. I live a normal life, I have my sister and my loving father by my side, my mother, who is our guardian angel from above and true friends that I can rely on. And of course, God is with me.
Tomorrow when I wake up, I will be happier. I will be excited of what life has to offer. Everyday is a gift from God.
Inhale. Exhale. Breathe. As I am typing each letters of this entry, I am listening to One Last Cry Instrumental cover- so that I would be able to feel the right emotions and write down my thoughts towards my feelings for you- to let it all out. To be honest, this is all I wanted. A goodbye letter to you. I wanted this all along, because you keep on haunting my mind and invading my heart, well in fact, you should not. I know, this is not your fault. I am not blaming you, nor blaming myself. Nobody’s fault actually, it just happened.
I really do not know why I was into you. I was very attached- in a way that I was able to wrote several poems for you which you never knew. I listen to beautiful melodies and all I imagined was the two of us. There’s a time that you haunt me even in my dreams- It was funny that in my dreams I was able to talked to you, eye to eye contact which in reality never happened- will never ever happen; and in my dreams I met your whole family. Funny, right? What a weird dream! There’s not a day that I never thought of you. You are always on my mind. Sounds cliche, but that’s the truth. I can only see once a week. I can only stare at you for like, 10-20 seconds but I am completely contented. I am already happy. But………….
I already knew that it’s impossible that we could happen- that we could be friends. Even, just friends. Still not gonna happen in reality. Before, I was still hopeful that maybe someday it could be but now? Not anymore. I give up. Again, I give up. IT’S HOPELESS. You will never ever like me back. (sad thing) But, that’s ok. Uhm, I am not lying. It’s definitely fine. I am kinda sad, disappointed but I am not broken, I am not hurting inside. I am just sad. Bakit pa kasi ikaw yung napili kong magustuhan? Well, we cannot choose whom we would fall for. It just happen.
So far, I did not regret anything. Wasting my time on you knowing that you would never do the same. I am still thankful, because for a short period of time. I felt kilig and happy. Nang dahil sayo, mas nakilala ko ang sarili ko- na kaya ko pa lang gawin ang mga bagay na yun. Kaya, salamat. Salamat pa rin sayo. I know, you are single. I do hope you will find your happiness. Kung saan ka masaya; I wish that, we will both find our true happiness.
Goodbye. I will no longer care anymore because if I do, paano kita makakalimutan? If ever, we will bump each other, I will pretend that I do not know you at all. Ganun ka din naman sa akin, diba? Patas lang. I will shut my feelings for you. But before that, there’s one more thing I wanted to do- just to let you know. Hopefully magawa ko siya. Sana. I will have the courage to do it. Always remember, I will never forget that once in a lifetime, I have known you and I had feelings for you, in some way. That you are my greatest crush or my greatest infatuation. Again, good bye and live your life the way you want it.
P.S. Ang drama ko talaga. ahhaah! But I did learn something, na hindi lahat ibibigay sa yo. Kailangan mong hintayin ang talagang para sayo. In time, alam kong, ibibigay niya yun. Sa tamang panahon at pagkakataon.
I am such a sleepy head! During school days I usually wake up at 6:00 am- that is super late already! Knowing that I have to arrive at 7:00 am in school. With the limited time, I still have to do much morning routine, like- taking a bath, brush my teeth (I skip my breakfast everyday cause if I would still eat, I would be super super late!) and do my make up, yes! I love make-up-and put on my uniform.
It’s been 2 days since I am not feeling well. I have cough and colds that never goes away. Earlier, I woke up at 2:26 am, I checked my phone and went online for a while. I also listen some meditation on YouTube. Then, I went to sleep, again. Hours passed, I open my eyes, and it was already 6: 10 am (gosh!) I am late for school! So, I decided not to go to school since I am not feeling well. I will just rest and I am not in the mood to go anywhere. I just want to stay at home. Just stay at home!
I went out of my room without fixing yet my bed! (nako!) Hihiga pa naman ako mamaya, eh! hahah! I charged my phone and open my netbook while sipping my favorite! -coffee-! I really love coffee, sooo much! So, now I want to blog blog blog and blog. This is one of my escape to feel better. I must feel better!
Happy Wednesday morning!
Walk by faith, not by sight.
Random thoughts of a random person
ERROR 143: lost girl, not ready to be found
Keep them heads up but feet always on the ground.